As 2014 comes to a close I am feeling very reflective. Looking back at the year and wondering what I did right, what I did wrong, and what I can do better in the coming year.
This year coming to an end feels especially bitter sweet. At the end of the year I will hand off my duties as manager of Downtown Yoga. Without going into too much detail, the owner of the studio could no longer afford my services and I find myself without a job as we head into 2015. I am sad because I so enjoyed my position at Downtown Yoga. I loved the people, I loved the instructors, and I loved knowing that I was helping to deliver yoga to the masses. It will be odd to find my footing as a 100% stay at home mom for the time being.
I truly enjoyed the juggle of working part time, it gave me enough time outside of the house to still feel independent and enough time with Ella to feel like I was still very involved with her life and upbringing. I am honestly very nervous about this transition, especially since we are heading into some very bleak New England winter months. I am going to have to work hard to still carve out me time, especially since there is another little one on the way !
And with that, I leave you with my resolutions for 2015!
1. Make myself a priority.
Again, this will be especially important as I transition into a life as a stay at home parent. It is so easy to get caught up in the day to day aspects of running a house and raising a child. Wake up early, coffee, breakfast, morning activities, lunch, nap time, afternoon, dinner time, bath time, bed time, repeat every single day. The three things (outside of my family) that I truly love in life are fitness, friends, and food. I will aim to utilizing my gym child care, make prenatal yoga a priority every Monday night , ensure I make time for girls chats over large mugs of coffee (and larger glasses of wine) , and keeping my kitchen interesting and low stress. One aspect of being a stay at home mom that really excites me is that I feel I will be able to really focus on the health and well being of my family by making sure we are well fed with wholesome foods and wonderful home cooked meals.
2. Make my marriage a priority
I believe that transitioning into parenthood is one of the most wonderful , yet the most difficult things a marriage can experience. Over the last almost 2 years I feel that Ella has become the dominant priority in my life, and not only have I suffered as a person but my marriage has gone through some hard times as well. With long hours of work and short hours of sleep, tensions can sometimes run high and its easy to allow resentment and hostility to creep into even the most loving relationship. We are at our best when we make time to communicate with each other, eat dinner together, go to bed at the same time, and do not just zone out in front of the TV at night. I want to invest in finding a baby sitter we like, and in becoming more creative with what we do together. I really like the idea of at home date nights that do not involve the TV, but instead cooking a wonderful meal together in the kitchen. Talking, drinking, cooking and coming back together not as parents but as two people who love each other and chose to spend our lives together
3. Transition into being a mother of two
I have no idea what being a mother of two will look like. I am excited to see Ella become a big sister . I am very excited to witness all those amazing milestones of the first year again, but this time with the seasoned eye of a mother who has been through it once and who knows that all things baby, both good and bad, are so very fleeting. This time, with the knowledge that eventually most babies sleep, I am excited to savor those middle of the night feedings. This time, with the knowledge that it will get easier and less painful, I am excited to breastfeed and actually take the time to enjoy the feeling of empowerment that comes with knowing you can provide everything your baby needs with your very powerful body. And this time, with the knowledge that the weight eventually comes off, I want to be more forgiving of myself when it comes to my “post baby body”. The theme of this transition will be patience and forgiveness.
Actually, I believe this is going to be my theme for the entire year of 2015 as I transition into being both a stay at home mom, and a mother of two. Patience and forgiveness, yes, lets start there 🙂