During the day I am very often over whelmed and feel like a big ball of adrenaline. I am constantly wondering if I am doing anything right when it comes to my child, and I find myself second guessing my decisions more often than I should. Then she wakes up from a nap, so happy, and smiles a great big gummy smile as soon as she hears my voice and all those feelings melt away. Sometimes I hear her on the monitor in the middle of the night, drag myself to feed her in her nursery, feeling so tired and wondering how I will ever stay awake long enough to feed her. Then I look down at her amazing eye lashes as she feeds, and she pauses for a second to let a sleepy smile creep across her face . Suddenly I have all the energy in the world and I know that these middle of the night feedings will end all too soon and I need to enjoy them. I need to enjoy the bonding time with my first child, with my little girl.
There has been a lot that has been over whelming about mother hood, there have been some rough days and nights, and I know that there will always be challenges. But I need to remember that everything I am doing is worth it. I love my daughter more than I ever thought possible, and love watching her grow and thrive everyday. I guess what they say is true when it comes to raising children, the days are long but the years are short. I need to enjoy every minute with her while I still can!